THINGS HAVE TO BE THIS WAY

Why can't you just understand

When things go out of hand.

Why can't you just relieve the pain

When you know fighting is all in vain.

Is it too tough to understand, I've had a real bad day

Oh my God, I just want to run away.

If only you would have cared for my tears

I might not have had these fears.

You know I'm hurt

Please understand even the strongest ones need comfort.

Why is life so unfair

Is it so hard for people to care.

If it has to be today

Let it then be this way.

I'm sorry, I can't take no more

Once again time has had its roar.

Yes I feel ashamed always to say

Things have to be this way...

Things have to be this way...

Things have to be this way...

my dear yes, there is no other way

Things have to be this way.

No More Lies, Betrayal Or Deceit
I Refuse To Let My Past Repeat

It seems no matter where you are in a relationship it's always lacking trust,

No matter how hard you try it’s always distrust..

Like a key opens a door trust opens a heart

But what do i do now that you have placed me so far apart...

Without your trust i begin to worry day n night

Burying myself all day in insecurities unable to read and write...

I feel so unworthy i have so much to say

But there i lie all day in thought and decay...

The constant pain makes it so unbearable

Because of these feelings dere is an emptiness in my heart

That drives me so far apart...

I feel it's easiest to just move on

but i wonder if you'll ever find a love so strong...

i want to be with you love you take care of you

please don’t force me to go so far apart...

but this time i will be strong and suffer no wrong

no more lies, betrayal or deceit

i refuse to let my past repeat...

INCOMPLETE

Why? Why do you act like the way you do when you know all I need is you...

I am tired of being reminded of my imperfections..m losing my mind...simply losing directions..

You will never understand this hell that I feel..oblivious to the emotions that to others are real..

I don't want no gestures of love all I want is your trust..

Cant you at least try... To understand about how I feel n why I cry..

The talk Doesn't have to be always you..it can be sometimes me too...

Why do you act the way you do when you know that I so much care for you..

I will not lie rather give up n die..

Why don't you see the tears I choke back n the words that I hold back..

I have been up all night Nothing seems to pass my mind“Goodnight” we said
but the silence was so thick and you never cared to break it.

Baby there’s nothing more I can do..you are my last resort n I have all the trust on you...

P.S.:- I cant think of better lines to finish the poem off...therefore the ending part awaits...

??WHY ME??

You said you love me..

Then why did you go away...

You said you love me den why fight with me every day!!!

I know you dont care I don’t want you to

Just leave me on my own I dont want to be a glue....

It dsn't matter how hard I try

U reappear always for a lie…

When m in pain I dont want to cry

But neither can I get myself back and fly high

Remembering our sweet old days I sleep with teary eyes

But y?? why cant I be happy jus as you are....

I cant wear this mask..

I cant perform anymore and accomplish the task

I do and achieve things that are useless in vain

Wen I know I cant take no more pain

Long back I let you in

And you became a part of me like a layer of the skin

And yet so painful but also so precious to me

I cant let u go..i cant let you be

I’m much more then the girl I thought I could be

She know's no terrors, offers no surrender..holds her values high

But what is the price for the armour I wear…

The vibe the terror the pain is driving me so damn insane…

I scream n scream n scream but nobody hears..no body loves…no body wipes those tears

I want to be free from all kinds of thins..

Now i'm sorry for I never wanted to be this..i never wanted to be this

Take me away I don’t want to see another day

Go away and never come back

you killed me with your broken promise

N nw don't try killing my neck

spare me from the vice....

RESOLVE NOT TO RESOLVE

Finally the new year is here. 2009 has been incredibly exclusive. Now is the time for a NEW YEAR 2010. There are generally two ways o start a new year. One to look to the coming year and make plans and other to look back to the year bygone. And one much used much abused way to look forward to a new year is a NEW YEAR RESOLUTION. From the third week of DECEMBER every year, otherwise perfectly rational people give way to these resolutions believing that somehow JANUARY 1 can do that magic to shoo there bad habits away. People make these resolutions year after year only to fall to there daily routine forgetting about the promises even before the month is out thus bringing themselves nothing but guilt. Why do we then bother to actually go for the trouble of searching one appropriate resolution that we can never achieve.

The other far more annoying conceit is the end of the year list. How will it actually matter to somebody if AVATAR was the best ever made films or if CHANDNI CHOWK TO CHINA or BLUE or any other film for that matter was a total flop. We weren't a part of it anyway. These top 10 books, top 10 movies, top 10 actresses etc is the most abashing and aggressive way of looking down upon those who could not make it to your list of top 10. My theory to this vile is that it is our own way of putting the past into neat clutches. As for me nobody cares if I think ROBERT PATTINSON makes it to the no 1 or SHAH RUKH KHAN stands nowhere in my top 10 for me. We have brain to create our own lists then why use somebody Else's to guide us. Somebody with too much time and not much work would notice and we would argue and rinse and recreate the same at the end of 2010.

when i met you i did'nt have no clue that you would change my life forever.but you did. After a while we a made a friendship so beyond anyother grip and i liked it.

But now its beyond me to carry this on you tried and i lied and now the burden takes me underneath n i have no place to shed my tears...

MY TEARS oh my tears did you really ever cared...mayb i am wrong may b you are right..mayb you could have waited as you promised..but thats what you dont have "patience"...

Telling the truth won't do,for that was a surprise to be .

God alone knows that I really wanted to make a change in you and be the first to greatly surprise you. But it all fell on me and I feel like simply taking my life away though it won't help and God forbid.

I know exactly how you feel about me for it's not the first time it's happening and I doubt if you'd ever again give me a genuine smile.Am sorry from the bottom most part of my heart and it was never meant to be that way and will never happen.

I will never let it again...

But though I've hurt you and I am also hurt I still love myself for I sacrificed myself and went beyond my pride to make it worth. Though all gone through and wasted. God had a perfect reason and from someone who madly and badly love you I'll miss you.

I know things wont be same from now on..

but whoever loves you better love you the way I did coz one day you'll realise I love you but maybe now it's time to move on. I love you and as long as you are happy I'm happy too..

when i first met you I knew it was true, It was like my life had just started, because of you

I made a huge mistake, that i will have to live with my whole but i hope it wont affect. I hope you can still lead a happy life...

coming to the end i have nothing more to say...all that is left is me n my way..i blame myself for everything bocause thats what you did..and i am happy this way because you never believed..

Still a request leave me and move ahead..there's still a lot that i expect

from you and that you have to do..

GOOD LUCK

MISS YOU ALWAYS

SCHOOL DAYS

I'm really gonna miss this place..m gonna miss my school days..i'm really gonna miss this place..m gonna miss my school days..

this is the school m never gonna forget..m never gonna forget this school..this is the school m always gonna remember..m gonna remember this school..

m gonna remember those moments spent under the trees with beloved friends..

m gonna remember those indica rides..with you all sitting by my side..

this is the school i love very much..i love it more than i can ever tell..

i love the way we fought and the way the teachers taught...

i'm really gonna miss this place m gonna miss my school days...

i'm gonna miss all those popular trends..n d boys with there girlfriends..

i'm gonna miss our canteen serving the best cuisine..

i'm gonna miss those beautiful scenes with the guys wearing low waist jeans..

i'm gonna miss those weary talks..and those friendly walks..

i'm really gonna miss this place m gonna miss my school days..

for the school that has showed me what the school days actually are...i love my school very much..